Don’t Make It Weird

Sometimes when I bring him up, people get weird or change the subject, or look at me like I should stop. That just makes me feel like I’m not allowed to remember him or that he didn’t really matter. And that’s worse than the sadness.

I don’t want to forget him. I want to remember the funny stuff, the stuff he used to do, how he made me feel. Saying his name doesn’t make the pain worse; it makes him real to me.

So yeah, just please don’t make it feel weird when I talk about him. I really need that.